I was listening to a song that is called "torn between two lovers" and it really hit me, because that's exactly how I feel right now. I cannot wait to see my husband again, play in my backyard with my kids, go back to my crafts and scrapbooking. On the other hand, the thought of leaving my parents again is killing me. I don't expect anyone to understand this, but I am hurting right now.
Being in my country makes me feel my old self again. Being in Michigan makes me feel my current self. Both make me very happy. Both make me a whole. Why can't I have both?
I know I cannot wait to kiss that gorgeous man (who happens to be my other half) and tell him I cannot live without him, and at the same time, ache deeply for not having my parents and their tender care 24/7.
I will definitely miss my country, but what I will absolutely miss is waking up to kisses and hugs all day long.
